At 250lbs I spent what felt like a lifetime terrified I would never lose weight.
Most Mondays I found myself taking another diet plunge worrying if this one would work.
Sometimes, I'd have a few weeks of success only to spend every day doubting I could keep going.
When will I screw up?
When will the shoe drop?
That was one hard as hell way to diet and yet I did it over and over again.
I felt like absolute ASS the whole time because every minute was spent in worry, fear and doubt is this.
I always cracked. I'd need a break on the weekend. I'd want to just take a day off from “dieting.”
The real problem was never the diet, but that's what I always blamed. The “diet” was making me feel bad, too hard, or too much work.
So, how do you lose weight? You can pick diets on Pinterest that promise abs. You can sign up for health apps and calorie trackers that help you do all the math and send you notifications to “eat now.” But the problem is this: you are still left with the ass fear, worry, and doubts.