All right. Welcome back, everybody.
So today I am with my membership, and we are recording a podcast that I never planned to record because I ended up having emergency appendectomy surgery.
And I'm going to talk a little bit about the surgery and what happened so that I can then talk about a very common question.
It's so funny. When I was literally laying in the recovery room, my friend Jane and I were sitting there and we were just talking.
Of course, I'm doped up on, I'm sure, propofol or something. Not sure.
And I said, "I'm going to turn this into a podcast."
In my mind, I was like, "I'm going to figure out how to use this. If I'm going to end up going down, I'm going to go down swinging, and I'm going to turn it into a lesson."
I get this question all the time.
So many of my members are in my age range. We are 50, 60. I'm 52, but, you know, my members are 50, 60, 70. I even got a couple of 80-year-olds. I'm sure I got a handful of y'all out there.
And, you know, surgeries and getting sick and things like that, this is becoming a common occurrence now for us.
And if we're not having it, somebody we love is having it.
And it can throw you for a whammy.
So I really wanted to do this podcast because I know if my members are going through it, I feel like a lot of people are going through it.
So let's start with the story.
The story begins: I had just finished an amazing three-day in-person.
So if you don't know, in my membership, I try to do it yearly. We've kind of been doing it bi-yearly right now.
Hotel space is the hardest part because we do, like, an Oprah-level quality show when we do one.
This is not like we all just kind of show up at some conference room and you get yelled at for a little bit or talked to, and different keynote speakers come in.
We do a quality, hardcore, "I'm going to change your life in two to three days."
So the first day was a VIP day where I just coached the VIP members.
So I was onstage all that day.
And then on Saturday and Sunday, I was on the big stage.
Hundreds of my members are there.
Hundreds are attending from the membership virtually.
And we were doing something called Unstoppable.
Of all the topics, this year was Unstoppable.
You know, how to be an unstoppable woman.
And so I had not eaten much because it's really tough to get a decent meal in when I'm at an event.
My stomach doesn't tolerate them well.
I hadn't drunk much on the final day because I drank lots of electrolytes the entire time except on the last day because the outfit I wore was a pain in the ass to get off in order to go to the bathroom.
It took two assistants for me to be able to get to the bathroom, not dump a mic in the toilet, and get out.
So I went to the bathroom at 10 o'clock in the morning, and I didn't drink a lick except for a few sips of Dr Pepper for lunch that day.
And then that night, because it's celebration night—I mean, we're done—I went to dinner with my best friend.
I visited a lot of my members who were in the restaurant.
I had a couple of drinks.
Like, just as girls, I was living my best life.
And it was one of the best camps ever.
So I was literally at such a high.
So my best friend and I, we go back to the room.
She's got an adjoining room, and I have a large suite because I have to have hair and makeup teams come in.
There's a lot that always goes on in my room.
So she's kind of far away.
What, 12:30 at night?
And I wake up, and I'm like, "Oh, I'm not feeling good. I think I'm gonna throw up."
And I couldn't decide if I was gonna take a shit or if I was gonna throw up.
So I go to the bathroom, and I'm sitting on the toilet, and I barely could go.
But I felt like I was going to vomit.
So I grabbed a little trash can.
As my normal routine, since I've had norovirus—I mean, in my 30s and 40s, I had plenty of drunk nights. I'm well-seasoned at what to do when you feel nauseous and you feel like your butt's got to be on the toilet.
So I grabbed a trash can.
And I can't vomit.
But I'm just breaking out in a sweat and needing to.
This goes on for four hours.
And I thought for a while, "See, this is why I can't drink. See, this menopause is kicking my ass. I should never have alcohol."
I thought I was just having a violent reaction to one and a half White Russians.
That's what I literally thought.
Well, I get to the retching part of it where now I'm just retching.
I can't throw anything up, but I'm literally getting after it on the toilet as if I could.
Still not really going to the bathroom.
I'm peeing like a racehorse, though.
Just odd things.
Well, at 4:30 in the morning—my best friend—no, it's about 4 o'clock in the morning.
I wake her up out of a dead sleep.
I was so weak and felt so bad, I couldn't even get to her room.
That's how bad things were.
And she comes in and says, "Is something wrong with you?"
She's like, "I heard this noise. I thought you were just coughing. But then I was like, I don't think that's coughing."
I was like, "No. Something bad is wrong with me."
So she gets me into the bed, and I'm, like, writhing in pain.
And I said, "I think we gotta call an ambulance."
I was like, "I don't feel good. I don't think I could take an Uber to an emergency room."
I already get carsick real bad.
I'm just on, like, death's door, basically, of nausea.
And I said, "Call it. Let's call an ambulance."
So the Hilton—I think we stayed at that.
Didn't we all stay at the Hilton, y'all?
I believe it was the Hilton Anatole.
And so we called downstairs, and they said security is going to take care of it.
They're going to get an ambulance here.
They said, "We will clear the lobby."
And they did.
My biggest fear was I was going to—I know this sounds terrible—I just knew I was going to get hauled out of there, and then all y'all were going to see me.
And I wasn't embarrassed to be seen.
I just didn't want everybody worrying.
And we couldn't get in touch—
I had tried texting my damn husband.
I'm going to tell you what.
I spent 24 hours pissed as fuck at Chris Crabtree.
It is a good thing he did not fly to Texas over this because I think I would have throat-punched him the second he walked in the door.
But my husband puts his phone on Do Not Disturb.
And I've told him a million and one times, "Something's going to happen to me one day. Somebody's going to need to get you, and you're not going to hear it."
Well, the day finally came.
I was vindicated, and I was right.
So I had tried to even text him in the middle of the night to let him know something's wrong with me.
And Jane's got her phone on Do Not Disturb.
Chris has his phone—
Like, I couldn't get anybody to respond.
Even my son was asleep and couldn't even get him to go wake his daddy up.
So the ambulance comes, and they take me to Parkland Hospital, which happens to be where they took JFK.
But it also happens to be where they have their own 100-person police force because that's where they take the psychos, the drug addicts, the people from the county jail.
And when we got walked in, I was like, "Wow. There's a strong police presence at this hospital. I've never seen so many police officers in one hospital."
And then a girl in handcuffs walks by me.
And she looks at Jane and she says, "Well, it looks like they got us."
And Jane said, "They didn't get me."
And then we get wheeled into a room, and outside the door is a poor man that, for one hour, repeated a story to himself about somebody he didn't like and how that person—like, he just wished they'd die.
And it was just over and over.
It was kind of a funny story, but we listened to it.
It was about a five-minute story, and he was outside for an hour.
This is where I was while they're trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me.
Well, this whole time, I'm just sick as a dog.
I am retching.
They're giving me morphine.
They're giving me Zofran.
Zofran's not even touching it.
After the third dose of Zofran, and a few hours later, and two rounds of morphine, they finally—
And I started violently cramping because I was dehydrated, and they wouldn't give me a goddamn IV.
I don't even know what that was about.
But I kept saying, "I can't move my legs or they immediately charley horse now."
And it was almost like the doctor, if I got an IV, it was going to come out of his own budget, like his personal checking account.
I go off to get a contrast scan.
And that guy's like, "Wow, you're really cramping. They should really give you some fluids."
And I'm like, "No shit, Sherlock."
So when I come back, I finally got fluids and the charley horsing went down.
Then they figured it out.
It's my appendix.
And they found what's called a fecal stone.
So if you don't know what a fecal stone is, because I didn't know what this was until then—
It didn't look like it was going to blow because they kept saying, "Well, your appendix doesn't seem really like it's inflamed, but there's a white spot in it."
Well, I had a fecal stone.
And that is where the appendix is kind of connected to the colon, and feces can get in there.
And you can also, if you have a lot of calcium going on, it can harden the feces and it can't move out.
And if enough collects, then it kind of enlarges your—basically angers your appendix, and it has to come out.
Well, y'all, I had an old shitty.
I was like—
Jane and I, if I could have laughed in the moment—
Jane thought it was hilarious.
I thought it was hilarious, but it hurt to laugh.
I was like, "Oh my God. I legit have an old shitty. Like, there's an old shitty in me."
And I got an old shitty removed.
How many times have I said to y'all, "If I could just give you a Levi, if I could just take the old shitties out, I would"?
Well, seems like you can actually have an old shitty removal.
Didn't even know it.
So you got to laugh or you will literally cry.
Okay.
So anyway, they tell me they put me in the queue.
I'm in the busiest surgical unit in all of Texas.
And there's an appendectomy ahead of me and eight gallbladder removals ahead of me.
And so by the time we got to the third room, which was going to be my room until I could have surgery, they said it could be two days before I could have surgery.
I was like, "What?"
I was like, "Two days?"
How was that?
I was just like, "Oh my God."
They do 67 emergent surgeries a day.
So luckily, no more appendectomies came in, and no more gallbladders came in.
So that meant mine was going to be up next.
I was at a resident hospital.
So they're always training the residents.
I went into surgery.
This all started at 12:30.
So technically Monday night—
So Sunday wrapped camp, and then at 12:30 that night is when I went down.
I went into emergency surgery at 2:30 in the morning at Parkland Hospital.
And they removed old shitty.
And I was back at the Hilton Anatole about, I would say, like, 7 o'clock in the morning.
They immediately released me.
I got to have just laparoscopic, which was great.
I definitely, just for purposes of this podcast, would like to give a huge shout-out.
Parkland Hospital was absolutely wonderful, though there were certain people—we have sent a note to the hospital.
There were just certain nurses: Nurse Katie, Nurse Alfonso.
I don't even know my PACU nurse's name.
I never got her name, but she was so amazing.
There was another guy, Warren, that was wonderful.
There were so many wonderful people.
Very nice.
Just so nice, the people there.
And then also the Hilton Anatole.
If you ever stay in Dallas, please promise, swear on a stack of Bibles, if you are a No BS woman and you love me at all, you will give them your business because they literally were amazing.
They were amazing.
I thought that I was already impressed with the way they handled our camp, but the way they handled me and took care of things was amazing.
They even sent their own security people to the hospital to give me a ride back to the hotel to make sure that I was okay.
And they arranged for a wheelchair so I wouldn't even have to walk to my room.
So just kudos to them.
And we are also sending them all kinds of niceties too because there were a lot of heroes that were on the Hilton side.
So anyway, they cleared the lobby so that I would not be seen in case there was a No BS woman catching an early flight.
It was just over and above and beyond service.
Just wonderful.
So then the question was: How do I get home?
Because I was not allowed to fly.
So what ended up happening was I was cleared to drive.
Well, I couldn't drive myself, but I was cleared to be driven.
So with stops, it was going to take about 12 hours to get home from Dallas to Nashville.
Well, my baby brother was at that camp.
And so was my assistant.
So my travel assistant—the one who, like, she just does all kinds of things for us when it comes to the little things for the Crabtree family—she was with us.
And she happens to also be the bartender at our restaurant.
And I had hired her to come to this camp to be my assistant for this, just for camp.
Well, my best friend stayed with me the entire time.
I mean, the entire time.
I couldn't have done—
In fact, at first, I was really upset that my husband wasn't there because I had told him to stay home to work on some projects.
And I didn't like that I was going to have surgery without my husband there.
But honestly, looking back, Jane just took such good care of me.
I'm glad it was Jane and not my husband because he annoys the fuck out of me.
All week long, I have snapped at him more than I probably have in the last 10 years of our marriage.
It was just better for me to not have him here.
Jane just is a good caregiver.
Chris, I love that man.
He ain't got a lick of common sense.
Not a lick.
And when I'm not feeling good, it's really hard for me to hold my tongue.
I'm already quick to anger.
Well, when my hormones are disrupted and I'm in stress and cortisol and stuff, it's really hard not to be a pissy-ass bitch.
So I've had to apologize so many times this week.
It is unreal.
And I'm up for it because I know what's wrong with me, and I know why I'm yelling and stuff.
But I also don't use that as an excuse to just treat him like shit.
So there we are.
But my brother said, "Well, I'm driving you home."
Like, he was like, "I'm changing all my flights."
Like, my brother was just like—
Another unsung hero.
Everybody changed everything, and they took real good care of me.
I got to stop at Buc-ee's for the first time because I had to walk every few hours, not develop blood clots.
And so we made an adventure of it, and we found a Buc-ee's on the way.
Stopped at the Benton, Arkansas one.
I will just say Buc-ee's was everything I imagined and more, and I walked out with a new sweatshirt.
So there you go.
I finally got home around midnight, and then recovery has begun.
So that is all that happened.
And now I'm going to tell you a little bit about the important things, which are:
Number one: "Well, Corinne, did you weigh in? And what happened?"
So I really thought about this since I had 12 hours to myself in the backseat because Brené and my brother are very quiet individuals.
And I could only listen to so many podcasts.
And so I just kind of sat with some music in my earbuds that I liked.
My brother loves country.
I'm okay with country, but I don't know country like he does.
And so I was listening to just my favorite music and thinking about it.
And I was like, "I am weighing when I get home. I want to know."
Like, what does surgery really do?
Like, I was so curious.
So the next morning, I hobbled my ass on the scale.
And from—
I weighed in the day before camp, and then I weighed in the day that I arrived after all the surgery and all the things.
Granted, I had not eaten.
Like, I didn't eat for almost 36 hours because once I'd had dinner and then once I made it to the emergency room, there was nothing but ice chips coming Corinne's way after that point.
And now, I wasn't super hungry.
But I'm going to tell you, once I was getting close to surgery and they had doped me up enough with—
Finally, Reglan was the anti-nausea medicine that they settled on that would work.
I was hungry, hungry.
I'm like, on the 10 scale of hunger, I would have ate anything had they given it to me.
And once we got back to the hotel, I was having to, like, slowly eat little things.
And so I basically hadn't eaten much since I had left for camp.
Bitches, I was up seven pounds.
Seven pounds.
So when y'all get all up in your feels about having surgery, like, "And I didn't even eat, and I even ate good, and I've been eating healthy"—
Your body holds so much water when it's trying to repair.
So much.
I have got fluid.
Like, there's—
I was telling Jane yesterday, beneath my boobs, it's like a water mattress there.
I can almost watch the ripples because my whole midsection alone is filled with fluid, just trying to heal probably an incision about an inch.
Like, one nick.
And the whole thing is like, "You have disturbed the Force, and we're going to have to take care of business."
So I weighed in, and I was up seven pounds.
I've been weighing in every day, and that thing's like a damn roller coaster.
Just depends on which day it is.
And I'm going to tell y'all, the first two days that I'm home—
The first night that I was—
The second night that I was home, I was up every hour with diarrhea for, like, eight hours.
I didn't hardly sleep at all.
Straight diarrhea.
I could have had a colonoscopy at this point.
Like, that is how cleansed I am.
And I am still up.
Now, I'm not up seven pounds anymore.
It's been coming down and going up and coming down and coming up.
But I'm not back to where I was even pre-surgery.
And I'm going to tell y'all, I've eaten just not much this week.
I'm going to get into the foods because I'm eating a lot of comfort foods because I'm basically eating anything that I feel like I can keep down.
So one of the things that I think that you need to remember is you cannot freak out.
This is probably the first time in my life, too, that I've really weighed with strict curiosity.
It really hasn't freaked me out one ounce.
There's not been a piece of me that has been just like, "Oh God, what if—blah blah—you're regaining all your weight."
Now, that is my privileged-ass mindset now of someone who's worked really hard on their mindset for the last 19 years.
Like, I am convinced because I have told myself so many times, "I can handle anything."
"This is what I weigh now."
"This is how we are."
But it is because I have conditioned a mindset to believe it.
It is not because I have kept the weight off.
I would have never kept the weight off had I not been telling myself that shit the entire time.
All right.
So that's, like, the scale.
The next thing is the food.
I am a big believer in this.
I think you've got to think about two things when you're in recovery, okay?
One is: What's really best for your body is what you can get down.
I have really struggled with what I can eat for the last—
We're going on seven days tomorrow.
Today is the best I have absolutely felt.
And I will kind of tell you how it went a little bit.
But I was back in the emergency room.
I guess it was—
I came home.
I arrived home, I believe it was like midnight Tuesday.
And on Wednesday night, I was in the emergency room because I sprang a really bad fever and I was having pain.
And we didn't know if it was, like, sepsis or an infection or whatever.
It was just the pain.
And I got cleared.
I got fluids.
I had to do another scan, all kinds of shit.
But I got cleared to go home.
My doctor changed my pain meds because my other pain meds weren't doing anything other than wiring me up and making me nauseous.
Like, that was all that was happening.
So I switched to hydrocodone with acetaminophen.
It did a little better, but basically from the time I left camp all the way until last night was the first full night of sleep I've gotten where I actually slept through the night.
All other nights, I've been up every hour on the hour, almost on the hour every hour, and been up for one to two hours.
I never do well with pain meds at all.
I've always been this way.
So I try to get off of them as quickly as possible.
But I've also been in so much pain that I just couldn't do it.
Yesterday, I was just so tired and so fed up with it that I took my last round.
I guess it was 2 a.m. Saturday morning.
And then starting yesterday, because it was football Saturday, I told Chris, "I'm going Tylenol and ibuprofen. That's all I'm going to take."
I feel like a completely different woman just clearing the pain meds out of my system.
So there's that.
But I've been eating a lot of comfort food.
So the first couple of days, I really tried to eat healthy, like what I normally would eat.
And I couldn't get anything down.
I was drinking just straight Gatorade and BiOptimizers electrolytes.
Lemon-lime, lemon-lime anything was the only thing that sounded good, tasted good.
So I could drink, but I was having a hard time eating.
And the only thing that really sounded good was mashed potatoes and potato chips.
For some reason, those two things and a biscuit.
So we went to Cracker Barrel, and I got some chicken and dumplings.
Couldn't even eat my chicken.
I never ended up finishing them.
Tried to eat them.
Couldn't do it.
Ended up eating the biscuit, take some medicine, ate the mashed potatoes.
And I've been like—for a couple of days, I was basically eating mashed potatoes.
I tried cereal.
Couldn't do cereal.
I've been trying to drink my husband's—I told y'all all about the Impact Recovery shake.
We'll put the link in the show notes for everyone.
I've been sipping on that.
But anything sweet has been very hard to tolerate except for fresh fruit.
I've been able to drink grapefruit juice.
I've been able to eat grapefruit.
Kiwi has been fine.
Like, it's just been the weirdest mix of things.
Then yesterday, or the day before, Chris took me to the grocery store.
I said, "I've just got to get some things that I feel like I could eat at this point," because I was starting to get really weak from being on pain meds plus not sleeping, and then on top, just not being able to hardly eat.
So I went to the store.
Now I'm living off of Kraft mac and cheese, the microwave version, because that sounds delicious.
I don't know why.
Well, I do know why.
I'll tell you why in a minute.
Lunchables—ham and cheese or ham and Swiss.
Mashed potatoes.
I bought some California roll sushi.
That didn't go down well.
So that sounded good but didn't go down well.
So I ended up getting rid of that.
I bought watermelon, more potato chips, and a lot of fruit.
I bought a butt ton of fruit.
And my sister-in-law made me a really healthy Greek-style, with pesto, Mediterranean salad that I just started eating.
That's got a mix of chickpeas and protein pasta, and it's got mozzarella balls.
We'll put the recipe for all of you, and I'll get it to Coach Christy, and she'll put it in all of y'all's weekly menu that we send out every week in the newsletter.
I'll get that to y'all because it's actually delicious and it's healthy.
I was going to have her make it for me anyway.
Just so happened that it's one of the things I can tolerate.
I was trying to think if there's anything else that I've been able to eat.
Oh, baked beans.
Like, baked beans.
Just out of nowhere, baked beans came as the unsung hero.
So I've just been in a steady rotation of that shit.
Just doing the best I can.
Like, you know what?
This is fine.
And this is the mindset that I tell myself:
I'm not going to somehow give up eating healthy.
I'm already starting to see the early signs of wanting fruit.
Like, that part of me is not going to die because, for a couple of weeks, I can't tolerate other things.
The other thing that's the mindset issue with the food that helps is I'm telling myself the entire time:
This is everything you teach women.
You teach them, listen to your body.
When I'm hungry, I'm eating.
When I'm not, I'm not eating.
But I'm also remembering what my body might be needing.
So I'm giving it lots of supplements, lots of rest, and a whole lot of Gatorade.
I'm making it happen in other ways.
Everything doesn't have to happen because of a piece of broccoli.
Just to be healthy is so much bigger than just, "Are you eating the approved foods of a clean-eating expert who taught you in the '90s?"
No.
Processed food, in this case, is life-saving nutrients.
It's getting calories in.
And it's fine.
And here's the other thing.
It's taking care of my nervous system.
Y'all know how important it is for all of us to feel safe.
We talked about it at camp.
I mean, Kathy did a whole presentation on it.
We all talked about safety the entire time.
Well, comfort foods allow you to feel safe.
Because, like, for me, I was sitting there thinking—I was joking with Chris.
I said, "Look at this shit that I am suddenly craving and wanting."
Those are the foods that I ate when I was sick when I was a kid.
Those are, like, some of the foods that we used to live off of when I was a kid.
And that was safety for us because we didn't have any money.
And so it's like my body is making this connection of, like, "I know you need to eat. Your little girl—this is what she would have picked."
And for me—
I'm going to be so emotional today, y'all.
My hormones are wrecked right now.
I don't think that y'all think about how important those things are.
It breaks my heart that when you're sick and you don't feel good, that you shame yourself over eating foods that are going to nurture you.
I don't call this emotional eating.
To me, this is—
Well, okay.
It is emotional eating, but it's the best kind of emotional eating because it's blending emotional eating with your physical needs.
It is exactly what you need.
And it is exactly what you should be doing.
And it's exactly how you should be fucking paying attention.
And it's everything that I teach.
So that's what I've been doing.
I've just, like, been eating the things and enjoying it, knowing my normal wanting to eat healthier stuff is going to come online when it comes online.
I'm never going to forget it.
The one thing that we know about our brains is our brains don't forget shit.
If it can remember that I want macaroni and cheese mixed with baked beans because that's what I used to eat when I was sick when I was 11 years old, don't you think that if you spent the last year changing your whole lifestyle and eating healthier, it's going to remember what happened at 51?
It's going to remember what happened three months ago, last week.
It's not going to forget these things.
It's just right now, it's like, "I don't want this and need this. Here's what I want and need."
Now, I'm not eating when I'm, like, if I'm sad or pissed that I've had surgery.
The emotional stuff I've gone through this week has been—
It is not easy for me to lean on people at all.
I've got everybody and their mother checking in on me, like, five times a day.
The second I put it out to the world that this happened, oh my God, my text messages really blew up.
People that I didn't even know had my phone number.
People I didn't even know who followed me.
Like, the people that we see at our favorite pool in Las Vegas follow me and were texting Chris, like, our pool hosts are texting Chris asking how I'm doing.
Like, I didn't even realize how many people we knew at this point.
It's really hard for me.
It's also hard for me to not work.
I've just, like, worked when I could, but it's been very hard for me to not feel panicky that I'm getting behind.
Like, all the things that I coach on all the time, same shit happens to me.
I have done a lot of thought work this week of just reminding myself:
"Everything's okay."
"Your team can handle it."
"You know, nobody's going to die."
"No BS isn't going to fall apart because you can't do this one thing."
Like, I've just had to do a lot of reminding myself, a lot of breathing, a lot of settling my own nervous system.
And because I'm doing that, I'm not eating.
Now, if I was just sitting around worrying and thinking it was true that I was going to get behind and that everything was going to fall apart, that I'm lazy, or like all the things that we—
"You're being weak. You're being this."
If I was just letting that one voice talk, I would probably be eating against my own will at that point.
And it wouldn't be because those foods are wrong.
It would be because I was doing myself wrong by not listening to the fear and then reassuring myself.
That has been the unsung hero of the entire thing.
Like, I've learned a lot from this.
So supplements that I'm taking:
I have stayed on the BiOptimizers Sleep Breakthrough and the magnesium.
Magnesium in particular because, like, my electrolytes—I'm sure we're all out of whack.
Like, all the things were out of whack.
You know, just dehydration, dehydration, all the things.
So I have been on a steady stream of that to just keep that—
Like trying to keep my sleep going.
I'm using the—
I decided through all of this, I was going to finally give up coffee.
So I only really drink one cup of coffee a day.
I've never had a great morning stomach and coffee.
I've tried a million different versions of low-acid coffee and stuff.
It's never really been great for me.
And so since I have not had really a good cup of coffee since I left Nashville—
Even at camp, I don't like Starbucks.
That was all they had.
I was barely drinking it then.
I decided now that I've already been sans coffee for a while, I'm not putting it back in.
So I decided to start my day with the BiOptimizers electrolyte lemon-lime in water and two of their Cognibiotics as my wake-up.
And that's actually been really helping me.
I'm also taking the probiotics first thing in the morning because I have now had four major rounds of antibiotics in one week.
They gave me three different bags of antibiotics in the hospital when I went to surgery.
And then when I went to the ER, they gave me another round in case, because my white blood cell count was up, but I did not have anything wrong.
So my gut flora is wiped at this point.
So I'm on the probiotics.
I'm also taking the stuff called ARMRA, I think it is, A-R-M-R-A.
It's a colostrum.
I'm taking it four times a day.
I'm taking my creatine every day because I'm not going to be able to work out for four to six weeks.
So just taking the creatine can really slow down any muscle loss.
So I'm continuing the creatine.
I didn't take it for about three days, and I'm back on it now.
The only reason I didn't take it those three days is I didn't want to be dehydrated until I felt like I was hydrating plentifully.
I didn't want to be on creatine.
So I'm taking that.
I'm trying to think of it.
I'm taking a truckload.
The Impact Recovery shakes, I am doing those as tolerable.
I'm having a hard time with sweets.
And until I can get the sweets up, I'm just trying to drink them, and I'm getting them down.
But now that things are coming back online, I'm going to be probably drinking at least two to three a day for the next two to three weeks while I'm recovering.
And then I think that's it.
Trying to think if there's anything else.
I'm like going through my mind of, "All right, what all are you taking?"
Oh, I'm back on all my HRT stuff.
So I'm right back to all of that.
Exercise.
This is the next thing.
I am not allowed to—
So right now, the first week, I am only supposed to walk as I can tolerate it.
Today was the first time I could walk 20—
Well, that's a lie.
The day of surgery, when I came back, I took several walks with Jane.
Really slow, but I actually walked more and longer.
But I still had anesthesia in my body.
Yet as of yesterday, I couldn't walk but a few driveways down and back to my house, and I could barely walk.
Like, I can go to—
Even when we went to Publix, Chris has to drop me off.
I have to have the cart, and I would have to sit down.
Like, I'm just having a tough time walking.
Well, once I came off all the pain meds this morning, I actually got a full night's sleep.
Only woke up twice to pee.
Was able to go back to sleep.
I did wake up sweating really bad.
So I'm obviously recovering.
I had a body outline of sweat in my bed.
And I even have an Eight Sleep, like the Eight Sleep pad that chills your bed.
I'll put a link to it in the show notes in case you don't have one.
But I had a body outline.
That's how hard my body's working overnight now to try to recover.
So I'm really prioritizing my sleep because I'll recover faster if I get it.
I went for a 20-minute walk this morning.
Now, I barely made half a mile.
But I will take it because today has been the best day I have felt.
I mean, I'm serious.
This is the best I have felt.
And then week two, I can walk as much as I want, and I can walk as fast as I want.
Like, walking is whatever.
But I'm not allowed to do anything—
I think—
Let's see.
Yeah.
I can only walk during week two.
So that's this coming week.
Starting on week three, I am allowed to do yoga and bodyweight stuff along with walking.
But I cannot do pull-ups.
I cannot do push-ups.
So nothing aggressive.
But if I want to start doing some bodyweight squats, if I want to do yoga, I'm going to do that.
So week three, I'm actually planning it on my calendar because this is where a lot of y'all get fucked up.
You'll start thinking, "I can't exercise. I'm going backward."
Like, just—I don't know.
Like, the flurry of shit y'all think that happens if you're going to be out for, like, six to 12 weeks is crazy to me.
I think it's because I've had so many surgeries, plastic surgeries, that I know the truth.
We all come back strong.
It doesn't take long to rebound and stuff.
I'm using this as an opportunity to do like I've always done.
I am scheduling walk appointments with myself during the day so that my brain stays in the habit of, "Oh, exercise gets done most days of the week, and here's when you do it."
Even if it doesn't look like what I've always done, my brain—I just tell it, "This is the same. It's just, this is our plan right now."
"This is what the trainer says."
I just happen to be the trainer.
And then on week three, I was really thinking about it.
One of the things I suck at and I need to do is I need to put in more mobility work into my life.
I need to do a little mobility before strength days.
And I need a full mobility day each week.
I only lift four days a week.
I'd like to have one full day where it's all mobility work.
Well, in week three, I'm going to start introducing—
I've started saving different mobility routines that I'm just finding on Instagram.
And I'm going to start doing them.
And that's going to do mobility.
Then I'm going to walk.
And I'm going to schedule it just like I would any other workouts.
It's going in my app.
I'm tracking everything in the same app I use when I strength train.
I use a personal one.
It's from Kahunas.
I don't know if you can get it, but it's the one my trainer uses.
I'm just using that.
And you can put it in anything.
But what it does is it's a psychological trick for the brain to think like, "Oh, we're still in the habit. Oh, we're introducing something new."
And I'm using it to introduce a habit that I have been literally—
It has been a goal of mine to do forever, and I've just not done it.
Now is the time.
This is the perfect time to put it in.
And then that way, the habit will be built and running by the time I'm actually allowed to lift again.
And then I can just stack the mobility onto putting my lifting back in.
So week three will be yoga and bodyweight.
Week four, I get to go back to lifting, but I can't lift like I was.
So I have to lift at 30 to 50% of what I was doing.
So for week four, I'm going to do just full body three days a week.
Now, I'm in shape to do that, okay?
If you weren't in great shape, that is not what you should start with.
But I would come in off of being very active in the lifting world.
So I will go to a three-full-body-workout week, half the weight, just major compound exercises, like the big boring shit.
And that's what I will do with the mobility.
And I will do walking every day because walking is just good for you.
And I'm a daily walker anyway.
Week five will be the exact same schedule as week four, except I get to lift heavier.
Not all the way, though.
Not allowed to lift all the way, but I can go up from the week before as tolerable and see how it feels.
Week six will be exactly the same as week five, but I get to bump it up one more time.
And then by that point, week seven, I will start my regular lifting routine that I left off with when I left.
I will be back to four days a week, splitting my body parts.
And I'm even allowed to go to failure.
I probably won't go to failure week seven.
I'll probably just reintroduce a four-day split again.
And then week eight, it is off to the races because I have six weeks of strength training before, guess what?
I start this whole process over again because I am having a facelift and my boobs done in December.
In this surgery, I was so afraid it was going to screw it up.
It is not.
So I will do all of this stuff, just like I told y'all, as the way that I recover, except I'll have to extend it because I think the lifting restriction may be up to eight weeks.
But I'm not 100% sure.
I'll find all that out in November.
But I'll just do the same thing.
The only other thing that I will tell you that is different is I have gotten away from journaling.
Writing journaling.
I've been trying to use AI for it, and I'm just not getting near the traction.
And so, as I've had time and I've been just scanning Instagram, next thing I know, I fell into the trap of 400 people who do things around planning and journaling and things like that.
I have one of my No BS notebooks from one of the years past.
It says, "Love is a decision we make each and every day."
And I started, as of this morning, the five things I'm grateful for.
I have listed my goals.
I have my priorities for this week.
So I'm only going to do priorities this week on the weeks when there's a priority.
And then on the back, I just wrote how I'm thinking and feeling on the final page this morning.
I'm going back to just journaling.
And I'm going to have a section in the back.
The way that I do it that makes it easier is I'll start in the back, and it'll be called Ideas, because I tend to have a lot of ideas when I'm journaling.
I'm going to put those in the back and go work their way up to the front.
And then I'm going to write what I'm grateful for, and I'm going to write my goals down every single day.
And I'm going to just do a general thought download of what I'm thinking.
And then I saw something really cool.
I don't know the girl's name, but she said rather than doing a vision board, she has a vision journal.
And so what she—
It reminds me of Andra Stevens.
I don't know if you're here today, Andra, but she does this beautiful artwork and stuff.
She does a lot of sketches inside the membership and stuff for y'all and posts them in Facebook on what she's thinking.
She was showing where, like, sometimes whatever her goals—
Some days she just has inspiration where she'll see pictures of things, and she prints them off of Pinterest or, you know, the internet or whatever.
And she cuts them out, and then she'll paste them in her journal so that at the end of her journal, it's just full of not only her words and things, but it also has the images of the things that she loves and that inspires her.
And so I was like, "I'm going to do that."
And I'm going to fill this one notebook up.
And then after I fill this notebook up, then I'm going to give myself the luxury of deciding, "Do I want to keep that habit, or has it served its purpose?"
So it's a nice, juicy one.
As I teach y'all, you do not need to do streaks.
I'm not going to try to be like, "I have to do this every day or I stop."
My goal is to do this every day.
And then any day that I don't do it, I forget to do it, I don't feel like doing it, whatever happens, is to see how fast can I do it again?
That is going to be my real goal, is to see how fast can I get back to it.
Just so I can prove to y'all that is exactly how being a consistent person works.
To be consistent, you have to be inconsistent first.
And I'm just like, you know what?
If I'm going to sit here and teach these bitches shit all the time, I am absolutely going to do the things I tell y'all.
Everything that I teach y'all, I've either done it in the past or I currently do it.
And a lot of things, I did it in the past.
I don't always feel like I have a time in my life—
There's just certain things I don't always need to do now.
And then look, the world opens a door and says, "Hey, maybe you need to bring some of this stuff back."
And that's how I'm feeling about journaling right now.
I feel like I need analog.
I don't want AI doing it for me.
I don't want him asking me questions and stuff.
I want to ask me the questions.
I want to do the writing.
And if I need help, I will reach out to either our own coaches in No BS and ask them to help me through something, or my own coach.
I have my own coach that I work with.
So that is everything.
That is the story.
Mr. Crabtree is out of the doghouse at this point for not answering his phone.
I don't know when I'm going to be cleared to have sex.
That's been our biggest conversation that we've been having, is that I'm back on my testosterone and stuff.
And so I'm all—you know, I'm horny as hell.
But I'm like, there's also a part of me that's like gatekeeping my vagina.
Like I told Chris, I said, "I don't know what my body thinks. There's no way you're getting all the way up to my colon, but I can't imagine that that's going to be a nice ride."
So I just keep telling him, "We ain't doing shit until my doctor says it's safe to do it."
So, all right.
Sophie says, "What kind of goals do you write down every morning, please? Thanks for sharing. Pen and paper activates more parts of our brain, I think, than when we sit in front of a screen."
I agree that it does.
Well, I can show you some of them.
My goals:
One is—well, the first one is just the business goal for next year.
Just like what the business should be doing in terms of revenue and all that kind of stuff.
That's, like, the first one.
And I do that when, you know, I have a payroll to meet.
And so one of the things that is really important to me is to make sure that I can meet that payroll.
And so I have to be growing the business to do it.
Plus, it's just my mission.
I want every woman to know this shit.
I want them to understand that losing weight is more than just, you know, "Can you follow a plan?"
It's like, let's lose the weight we carry around in our heads so we can lose the weight that's on our body.
The second one is—
This is just—I don't know.
I love Instagram.
I could just sit on Instagram all day.
They love to serve me everything that I like and enjoy, like my UT Vols and funny little cat videos.
I love a good beard-plucking video.
Just the random things Corinne enjoys.
Well, I want to have a million followers on Instagram by this time next year.
And I'm at 95, 96,000.
I think I'm at 96,000.
And so, to me, the reason why it's not vanity, but, like, if you've got a million followers, it is a lot easier to get other platforms to pay attention to you so that you can get your word out.
So for me, it's more in service of that real goal of my mission is to teach every woman how to lose weight for good and feel amazing as she deserves.
That has been our mission statement for a long time.
And in order to teach every woman, it doesn't mean every woman needs to be inside No BS.
But if I could get my free course in the hands of every woman, if I could get my podcast in the ears of every woman, like, those are the things that I think about.
Would I love for them to be a No BS woman too?
Absolutely.
But that is my mission.
And so, like, having a million followers would open the doors to other things where I could be on bigger platforms in order for other women to be able to get all this information.
I want to grow our memberships.
I've got a membership goal.
I can rip off 10 pull-ups easy.
I put that on there.
So it's like, "I can rip off 10 pull-ups easy."
And I mean, like, strict pull-ups.
I can get off three easy right now.
So it'll take about a year probably to get there.
But I just want to be able to be stopped on the street and somebody say, "Can you do pull-ups?"
I can say, "Hell yeah. Get me a tree."
And I can just get hoisted up to a tree and get after it if I wanted to.
I want to weigh 150 pounds and be ripped.
I've got the weight down.
It's the ripping that needs to happen.
So I think this next year, I have a lot of ideas around, like, adding some weight and then taking a little weight off.
I'd like to just kind of see a little bit more muscle.
So there's one.
I have another membership.
I've got definitely a whole goal around that one.
It's my business membership that I teach coaches how to build their coaching businesses.
And I'm going to rebuild it for this next year.
So I have a goal around that.
And what is the last one?
Oh, just to take true vacations with my husband where I unplug, but I don't want him to unplug.
And that's not because I think he should work.
I just know he's happiest when he works.
And so to go on vacation and for both of us to unplug, he would never be happy.
Chris is like, he's a working dog.
He always has been.
I would like to take—
I've got on here three vacations next year where I completely unplug and just spend time self-developing, like ideating and doing things like that while Chris does whatever he wants to do.
And then we just hang out together.
And, you know, we already vacation a lot together.
But I just want us to find something other than just going to Vegas.
Like, I'd like for us to find a beach somewhere that we could both enjoy and stuff.
So anyway, those are my goals.
So there you go.
My Instagram is very easy: @Corinne_Crabtree.
Very clever, right?
"When you grow and need to hire, do you ever look within the membership for candidates?"
Yeah.
Every member of this team currently was a member except for my brother, my niece, my son.
My assistant, she came with Chris from a different place.
Bailey, she wasn't a member of No BS, but she came on board to do operations because she had done the events for No BS for so long.
She was, for over five years, she already knew how we operated.
That's why she ended up getting hired because she understood our woman so well.
I'm trying to think of anybody else.
I think every other person on the team—all, there's 16 of us, I think—was a No BS woman first.
And that's usually the most important thing.
I'm not exclusive to No BS women, but I definitely feel that No BS women bring a very specific mindset with them.
You really understand our person.
And my customers mean everything to me.
If you don't understand my customers, you can't get in their head.
You can't put them number one.
And to me, they got to be number one in your work life, not in your personal life, but at least in your work life.
If you're not that die-hard dedicated to them, you will never survive on this team.
You have to be willing to eat, breathe, and live the No BS woman.
"One year ago, I had my second total knee replacement emergency rehab debacle. At that point, I got on track and a month ago had lost 75 pounds following No BS. But the fear I had after that ER nightmare, I find myself going backwards. I am now at 69 pounds and trying to get back on track. I know I'm emotionally eating. Any suggestions to flip my brain thoughts of epic mode?"
Mary, you have to go to Ask Coaches.
I'm going to tell you right now, this is not something I can just—
Like, my best advice is you need to go to Ask Coaches, and you need to tell them exactly what you're afraid of.
Every fear thought.
And I would go every day until it was fixed.
I'm not joking.
So at camp, I must have said it 1,000 times.
Y'all tell me in the chat, where do we go whenever we need to work on something?
Where do we go if we're having overeats?
And where do we go if we're stuck?
Thank you.
Ask Coaches.
It's coming in like a champ.
Y'all forget that so much of this stuff is not, "Corinne's just going to tell you one magic thing, and then off to the races you are, and it's all solved."
It is peeling back layers and layers of fear.
And when your keyword is, "I'm trying to get back on track. I know I'm emotionally eating," every emotional eat, you should take it to Ask Coaches.
And we need to get to the root of what's causing it.
Because when you're emotionally eating, it means there's something going on underneath you're not dealing with.
And we can deal with it in other ways.
It could be nervous-system stuff.
There's a million different things that it could be.
There are a thousand different keys that we can try to make this thing unlock.
There are lots of solutions that we can try.
You owe it to yourself to go to Ask Coaches.
I think there's natural fear and stuff that comes up, but we have to figure out what the fear is.
So far, we don't even know what it is.
We just know you're afraid of the emergency room.
Well, emergency rooms aren't scary.
Rehabs aren't scary.
Knee replacements aren't scary.
None of those things are scary.
But our thoughts about every single one of those things are really scary because we make those things mean really scary things.
And we have to figure out what you are making all of those things uniquely mean for you.
And then we have to untangle all of them so that you can feel free and you can feel safe.
And then once that happens, you don't need food to do it for you.
"I noticed there were a lot of us at camp and in the membership that are scheduling plastic surgery or skin-removal surgery."
I know.
Isn't that a good problem?
Got so many women losing weight, it's time to have some of this skin removed.
I'm going to tell you right now, I was so proud.
I was like, "Oh my God."
I was just like, "This is amazing."
I had woman after woman come up to me and tell me how much weight they'd lost and say, "And I'm planning to have my surgery. I am planning to get my boobs done. I'm planning to get my skin removed."
All the things.
And I'm going to tell y'all right now, when you lose weight, you do not have to do that.
As Dolly Parton said, "If you can, why not?"
You know?
I mean, shit.
So I think there's nothing wrong with plastic surgery.
I'm a big advocate of it.
It makes me feel good.
You know, if you can do it, do it.
But you can feel good other ways.
You don't even have to have it.
So she wants to know, "Are we going to plan a call about this or any mini videos or worksheets?"
I've not planned anything actively other than I am going to definitely give y'all the behind-the-scenes of everything I go through.
So whatever I do, y'all are going to know.
My prep work, you're going to know it.
All the things.
As of right now, though, if you want it, I put together a guide for plastic surgery.
Like, what to anticipate, how I prep for it, the mental shit, like all of that.
A few months ago, from one of our members who was going to have plastic surgery, I worked on it myself over a couple of days, and then I sent it to her to help her.
So if you would like that, just email us and we will give it to you.
"Is 71 too old to start the process of coaching school to be able to work with you?"
No.
Well, let me just tell you this.
Absolutely not.
I mean, if you think about it—
Here's the thing.
I don't hire based on age.
I just don't.
I base it on talent.
You know, like, you have to show us that you can coach.
I like it when you come to me with ideas of, like, "Here's this unique people that I would be helping. Here's the unique problems that they have."
And if you think about it, at 71, so many of our members are what?
Over the age of 70.
So you would have a unique fit.
Thank you.
This is bringing me my next shake.
Cheers, y'all.
So no, I don't think it is.
Here's what I always tell people.
I can only hire so many people as I grow.
So if you are going to do something and spend that kind of money on it, you also need Plan B.
It's like, if I wasn't able to get hired at No BS, then what would I do with this?
That's just me being transparent and honest and open with you about it because I can't hire everybody.
I wish I could.
I wish that literally I would get so big that I could just hire every No BS woman that becomes a life coach because she knows that she can help other No BS women.
That would be an absolute dream of mine.
But, you know, I also take every single person I put on my payroll absolutely seriously.
And I don't like to make promises I can't keep.
But, you know, just like all of our other people, I don't think age is the problem.
The problem about figuring out coaching is figuring out:
Who are you going to uniquely help?
And why?
And are you going to like it?
And where do you find your people?
And what is the problem that you want to solve for them?
Because that's where coaching becomes a beautiful blend.
All right.
Anybody want coaching today?